Tuesday, December 8, 2009


I am writing an article with a colleague about codependency as it relates to addiction.  How about one that relates to the internet?

When my modem died I felt as if I was mourning a close friend. I was disconnected. My I dentity was severed. Even my I phone, used to routing in my house, wouldn't work. I had to vacate the premises just to check email.

Today, I actually had to call people I would have normally emailed which forced me to behave socially. Oh, the indignity of it all. I felt like it was the 1990's all over again. Thank goodness, Al Gore invented the internet!

In some ways it was a wonderful feeling, except for the fact that I knew everyone else was wired in and connected and I wasn't. Reminded me of being invited to a party when I was 16 and then coming down with bronchitis and 104 fever. Who got to feel up Susie will always remain as mystery in my mind?

But as I predicted today is fine. I bought another modem that actually comes with a wireless router and the $100 charge is refunded by AT&T for reasons I can not understand. If they said it is $100 I would have been more than happy to pay that amount or more just to go to the internet party. Now I can return a wireless router I bought just two weeks ago. Keep in mind in addition to checking email obsessively, ever since a lady told me I had to, writing and posting my blog, processing credit cards and paying bills on line I am hooked--addicted actually-- to the internet. Best as I know so is everyone else! We are codependent forever and like all addictions it well get progressively worse--or better depending on your point of view.

Thank goodness I don't have to call anyone tomorrow! It's all good.

Bye For Now,



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1 comment:

  1. Wow, admitting being powerless is one of the first steps in addiction recovery; I am concerned you might be falling back into the "robot" mode regarding the modem and all its' parts. However, knowing you, at some point you'll learn to be connected in ways far beyond internet capabilities. At that point in time, an occassional relasp won't do too much damage, it is all good.....